Feeling all mixed up

The neighbor cut down a big tree that was going to fall soon

Had a good home renovation meeting today. It looks like we are going to maybe get started soon.

This weekend is looking a bit weird. We have some vague dinner plans for Saturday. That is about it. Maybe we will just be mellow. I want to work in the kitchen a bit (make hot sauce, breads). It could be nice to spend some time outside, and work on a plan to empty the garage room before the renovation begins. I guess I should be happy with a mellow weekend. Next week is Thanksgiving, and that will surely not be mellow. Virginia and the kids are leaving Tuesday, and me on Wednesday after work. It is making more and more sense to conserve my vacation time. I will surely need it in the upcoming year.

I found a book that I am desperate for, called the Professional Chef. It is the textbook for the Culinary Institute of America. It is available for the Ipad and has been made very interactive. It is a complete cooking course, and so interesting. I got a free chapter about soups, and have already learned so much. It is pretty expensive at $50, so it isn't an instant purchase. I have been thinking about things I want to buy, and bought myself a Jawbone Up band. It is a bracelet that keeps track of your movement. It gives a graph of steps taken and hours slept each day. I think of it as a little friendly reminder to be healthy. It vibrates to remind me to be active, if I sit still too long. I am wanting to get a pedaling thing that goes under my desk at work, so that I can pedal while I work.

I have been trying to stay active, going to the gym every couple of days and using therabands and taking push up breaks, and drinking lots of water, and taking some supplements. I don't want to be obsessed, just healthy. I have several pounds to lose and I like the way this is feeling.

I am feeling happy and very sad. It is a tough mix to come to terms with. I've got to get my head straight.